Not A "Love Story"

C i been thru-da heartaches, heartbreaks,/
Sleepless nyts ,nd da fake dates/
Wake up in da  morning nd cudnt think str8/
allow me 2 demonstrate...


Numba 1:

Babydaddy, our shit was kinda heavy/
Dated 3 years str8,nd dem hoes on da syd,der were plenty/
I knew he loved me/
Bt he loved his dick more/
Nd all he reali wanted was 2 score/
He was a pretty bwoi, allota gals loved him/
He knew it, nd havin a kid 2getha cudnt stop him/
Only thing good, dat came from dat, was my daughter/
Nigga cheated on me, Beated me up, den force me 2 sleep wit him, even if der was blood/
He wudnt give a fuck/
Den turn around nd kiss me, tell me he loved me nd he was sori/
I neva believed him, although i loved him, i had 2 leave/
31st December 2007, i told him i was out...
Had no doubts, i had 2 do it/
So i bounced/
That happened 3 yrs ago/

Stayed single for 6mnths str8/
Focused on me...

...Till i met...

Numba 2:

His name was KG/
Handsome, 23, wit alotta dough/
Lacked focused though/
He told me he loved me, wud neva leave me/
That was til ex called nd said she was expecting/
I must admit, dat tore me into pieces/
Thot that he was "Mr Right"/
Guess i was wrong/
Cudnt get ova him/
Tried 2 stay single, bt dat didnt work/
So I decided i needed a distraction/

Thats wen i hooked up wit.....


Numba 3:

His name was Kay/
Freaky s dey can B/
He was da fun guy/
I jus cudnt stand da lies/
But in bed,he made me 4get abt Numba 2/
Bt soon, i realized it wasnt enuf/
I was looking 4 love/
So once again, Gspot stepped/

I chilled 4 a wyl/
Stayed single, bt wasnt ready 2 mingle/
Til i made friends wit dis guy/
He was hot, but he didnt make it to Numba 4/
He showed me his true colours, b4 we cud even make it official/
Had me thinking:"damn Gee, dat was close, u cudve had ur heart broke"

Dis guy introduced me 2...

Numba 4:

We was cool, he had a gal, nd i wasnt ready/
Till she cheated, nd we became steady/
We were inlove/
Everything about him, i loved/
We was close, 2 bestfriends/
Wudve stu:k wit him 2 the end/
He cheated, nd yeah my heart bleeded/
Bt even that wasnt enough, 4 me 2 leave him/
So it happened more den twice, thrice/even more den six tyms/
We broke up a couple of tyms, but we always got bck 2getha/
Until he changed, he became cold/
I was pregnant though/
I cudnt keep it, i needed him nd he didnt want nothing 2 do with me/
So i went thru it alone, da worst kind of pain/
Gspot was torn, evrynyt id hear a lil voice screamin out me/
I blocked it out tho/
Went heavy on the drinking nd smoking/
Surrounded myself wit ppl, bt i still felt lonely/
Walked around wit a smile on my face, but inside i felt foney/
I'll admit, I had an addiction, kinda lyk "EM", pescription pills were my weakness/
Id pop 4 @ a tym, jus 2 feel numb/
Sumtyms, id say its coz i cudnt sleep, but dat was real tho/
Insomnia was my best friend, wen i needed n excuse/
I jus wanted 2 blaq out, passout evrynyt/
Bt id still wake up @ 3, wit the thots of wat it cudve been/
Wyl i was goin thru all this, id text my gal thru da nyt/
We'd have random conversation, didnt want her 2 knw abt da pain i was facing/
Heart wudnt stop raising/ 
Den 1 day he called, wanted 2 talk 2 me/
Nd we back @ it again/
He neva talked abt the baby, or even said sori/
Bt expected us 2 b happy/
I was inlove tho, wnt even lie/
Bt that love came wit a deep sense of hate nd despise/
Evrytym i looked in his eyes, i wanted 2 kill him/
@ tyms id watch him s he sleeps, nd ask myself y im still here/
Why wud i love sum1 wu doesnt give a fuck dat our kid died/
Nd eventually, he was back @ it again/
Cheatin, lying nd bein cold 2wards me/
Bt dis tym i had a friend, wu was inlove wit me/
Dis is wen i wrote, "When u stopped he started"
Evrything on that note, made "HIM" retarted/
So again, i left/

...And my friend...?

...He is ...

NUMBA 5:
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Up In Smoke....