The End of Not A LoveStory

This is the END

Never will i spit abt LOVE again..

Broke up wit Numba 5,

Coz HONESTLY dat was nothing but LIE

He 4got wat i was worth

Even wen i put in more work

He neglected  me

Never looked @ me,

Never called,

4got 2 say "I love you", made me feel like a whore
Stopped treating me like his women
And 1 weekend,
Numba 2: whose name is King,
Made me feel like a Queen
So once again, it was a "When You Stopped He Started" story
He took my pain, turned it into Glory

But me nd him cud neva B

Simply coz....
We got History!

Nd i admit, i love him 2

But he gave up on us 2 soon

left my Gspot bruised

We better off as friends

Even tho, my feelings 4 him will neva end.

Thats it...

This was never a LOVE STORY,

i was jus expressing Gspot's Pain NO GLORY!

Im never going bck 2 either one of them...

IM SORRY!

Gspot Going Celibate? Never that!

Eight Bars and i aint never been arrested/
I scribbled down these rhymes, u jus witnessed my sentencing/
Like da nigga from "Prison Break",
Im jus trying 2 escape/
Bt i cant,
Im locked down in dis prison called fate/

Gimme a hand/

Got a whole lotta bitches showing me hate/

But hey, im da Gspot, imma tell u shit 2 ur face/
Got ppl questioning my race/

Its all jus 1 big debate/

"Is Gee Blaq or White?"

Tell me,
"Is she Straight or Dyke?"
Jus pass me da mic, i wana spit dis shit Live!
Im heated up, get da fuck out' my face, u blockin my fans/
Please, jus give me sum air/

#NoJordanSparks

I c u passin da mic, is it TRUTH or DARE?

Im jus spitting 4 da hell of it

A Gspot going celibate

Never that

Wat da hell is gonna cum of dis

Imma keep ripping dis shit 4 da hell of it

Holding it down, nd im loving it!

Ive been around alotta haters and liers and players/

Ive even seen alotta gals goin thru bad breakups/

Ive met too many niggas trying 2 knock me up/

Thinkin a baby wud keep me bound 2 him/

If u didnt knw, lemme give it 2 u 4Sho,

Dis Gspot-jus-cant be tamed/

Coz...

Fake-ass friends, I've had plenty/

Fake-ass men, I met many/

So u wana knw if i still believe

Honestly,

I think love is as real as me weave/

No lies/

I aint even trying 2 diss guys/

I refuse 2 put on a disguise/                                         

Gspot's jus saying wats on her mind/

And that is why....     

Im jus spitting 4 da hell of it

A Gspot going celibate

Never that

Wat da hell is gonna cum of dis

Imma keep ripping dis shit 4 da hell of it

Holding it down, nd im loving it!

Still Not A "Love Story"

Damn, I cant believe im doin this again/
Gspot aint even trying to offend/
I just want people to understand,/
That this, aint a "Love Story"/
Its more of a Truestory/
My story/
This blog, is Gspot's ONLY Glory/
Last time i did it, i hurt alotta people/
Pissed off alotta exes/
Shocked alotta friends/
And yes, everyword was true/
Everything i wrote, I went through/

I ended off with...

Numba 5
The friend who claimed he loved me/
Be there for me/
Made me think that id never be sorry/
Truth is, Im starting to think that he was putting on a Visage/
That maybe, we werent meant to be/
And actually, he was jus tryin 2 win/
Gspot, "so called hot"
Kinda like my SOCO nd Stroh-Rum, DOUBLE on da rocks/
But he forgot, wat Gee was reali about/
RESPECT, TIME & LOVE
My 3 keywords
Him on the otha hand, started treating me lyk a fan/
In every sense,
He used me wen he wanted cooldown/
Get away from da exes nd fast life/
Da heavy partying nd clubs/
My commitement 4 him, was never enough/
Till this day, i could never tell, if it was really love/
He was all about the VERSACE shades/
The quick getaways/
Me?
Im all about, calling a spade a spade/
And in all honesty, im starting to think "OUR LOVE" was FAKE/
Pain cut so deep, lyk i was birthing a BLADE/
#NoWessleySnipes
While he was takin his VODKA shots,
With his crew nd HOTT friends/
I was turning into a HOTTMESS/
No1 cudve guessed/
Double ABSOLUT nd RedBull/
Jus 2 cover up the BULL, i was reali goin thru/
Nd guess wat, NUMBA 4 & 5 r both TAURUS signs/
I shudve read between da lines/
But i didnt, nd if i told ya'll we were ova, i'd b lying/

Naaah ya'll, this is STILL NOT A LOVE STORY...

Im just trying to share my PAIN & GLORY!

When you stopped....He started!

• When you stopped smsing
• He started calling
• When you stopped caring
• He started loving
• When you stopped looking at me
• He couldnt stop starring
• When you stopped treating me lyk ur woman
• He started treating me like his Queen
• When you stopped holding me
• He wouldnt let go
• When you stopped respecting me
• He started worshiping me
• When you stopped feeling my pain
• He beared it with me
• When you stopped sharing your life with me
• He gave me his
• When you stopped spending time with me
• He wanted to spend  all of his time with me

..... When you stopped.....He started!

Letter to a stranger

I had a thought of u 2 day...
It made me smile and cry at the same time...
The thought of you gave me an overwhelming sense of Euphoria and Elation


I saw us together:

laughing>holding hands>kissing
It felt more like a memory, than a premonition

Cause...

• I cud still smell u, i cud still feel u,
• I cud still feel ur breath down my neck,i cud still feel ur hands going down my spine
• I cud still feel every drop of ur cold sweat, from evrytym we laid in ur bed

If all of these events havent happened yet, then tell me this...

• How come the thought of you still gets me wet?
• How come everytime i close my eyes, i see your face?
• How can i long for you, when we havent met?
• How can you be from my future, when i  am certain , that u  r from my past

You look, feel and smell too familiar to be from anywhere else

I hope this letter reaches you in time
I dont want to have yet another Black Valentine

Signed
Gspot

Not A "Love Story"

C i been thru-da heartaches, heartbreaks,/
Sleepless nyts ,nd da fake dates/
Wake up in da  morning nd cudnt think str8/
allow me 2 demonstrate...


Numba 1:

Babydaddy, our shit was kinda heavy/
Dated 3 years str8,nd dem hoes on da syd,der were plenty/
I knew he loved me/
Bt he loved his dick more/
Nd all he reali wanted was 2 score/
He was a pretty bwoi, allota gals loved him/
He knew it, nd havin a kid 2getha cudnt stop him/
Only thing good, dat came from dat, was my daughter/
Nigga cheated on me, Beated me up, den force me 2 sleep wit him, even if der was blood/
He wudnt give a fuck/
Den turn around nd kiss me, tell me he loved me nd he was sori/
I neva believed him, although i loved him, i had 2 leave/
31st December 2007, i told him i was out...
Had no doubts, i had 2 do it/
So i bounced/
That happened 3 yrs ago/

Stayed single for 6mnths str8/
Focused on me...

...Till i met...

Numba 2:

His name was KG/
Handsome, 23, wit alotta dough/
Lacked focused though/
He told me he loved me, wud neva leave me/
That was til ex called nd said she was expecting/
I must admit, dat tore me into pieces/
Thot that he was "Mr Right"/
Guess i was wrong/
Cudnt get ova him/
Tried 2 stay single, bt dat didnt work/
So I decided i needed a distraction/

Thats wen i hooked up wit.....


Numba 3:

His name was Kay/
Freaky s dey can B/
He was da fun guy/
I jus cudnt stand da lies/
But in bed,he made me 4get abt Numba 2/
Bt soon, i realized it wasnt enuf/
I was looking 4 love/
So once again, Gspot stepped/

I chilled 4 a wyl/
Stayed single, bt wasnt ready 2 mingle/
Til i made friends wit dis guy/
He was hot, but he didnt make it to Numba 4/
He showed me his true colours, b4 we cud even make it official/
Had me thinking:"damn Gee, dat was close, u cudve had ur heart broke"

Dis guy introduced me 2...

Numba 4:

We was cool, he had a gal, nd i wasnt ready/
Till she cheated, nd we became steady/
We were inlove/
Everything about him, i loved/
We was close, 2 bestfriends/
Wudve stu:k wit him 2 the end/
He cheated, nd yeah my heart bleeded/
Bt even that wasnt enough, 4 me 2 leave him/
So it happened more den twice, thrice/even more den six tyms/
We broke up a couple of tyms, but we always got bck 2getha/
Until he changed, he became cold/
I was pregnant though/
I cudnt keep it, i needed him nd he didnt want nothing 2 do with me/
So i went thru it alone, da worst kind of pain/
Gspot was torn, evrynyt id hear a lil voice screamin out me/
I blocked it out tho/
Went heavy on the drinking nd smoking/
Surrounded myself wit ppl, bt i still felt lonely/
Walked around wit a smile on my face, but inside i felt foney/
I'll admit, I had an addiction, kinda lyk "EM", pescription pills were my weakness/
Id pop 4 @ a tym, jus 2 feel numb/
Sumtyms, id say its coz i cudnt sleep, but dat was real tho/
Insomnia was my best friend, wen i needed n excuse/
I jus wanted 2 blaq out, passout evrynyt/
Bt id still wake up @ 3, wit the thots of wat it cudve been/
Wyl i was goin thru all this, id text my gal thru da nyt/
We'd have random conversation, didnt want her 2 knw abt da pain i was facing/
Heart wudnt stop raising/ 
Den 1 day he called, wanted 2 talk 2 me/
Nd we back @ it again/
He neva talked abt the baby, or even said sori/
Bt expected us 2 b happy/
I was inlove tho, wnt even lie/
Bt that love came wit a deep sense of hate nd despise/
Evrytym i looked in his eyes, i wanted 2 kill him/
@ tyms id watch him s he sleeps, nd ask myself y im still here/
Why wud i love sum1 wu doesnt give a fuck dat our kid died/
Nd eventually, he was back @ it again/
Cheatin, lying nd bein cold 2wards me/
Bt dis tym i had a friend, wu was inlove wit me/
Dis is wen i wrote, "When u stopped he started"
Evrything on that note, made "HIM" retarted/
So again, i left/

...And my friend...?

...He is ...

NUMBA 5:
**********

Up In Smoke....