The Love of My life

I think I've fallen inlove again...

This isn't like any other love I've eva experienced.
I've said this before, but this time it really is different.

Its da power that you have.
Your popularity, more well known than any celebrity.
The way I feel when I hold you.
How nothing is out of your reach.
How you would go to the ends of the world to make me happy.

And in all honesty, I've always been inlove with you.
I was just too scared, or rather embarrassed to let you or anyone know.
So I kept this love a secret.
Your were more than a crush.
And even when I was in relationships, you were always on my mind...
...My one true love...

Its you and only you that I can't get enough of.
You the only one whom I can have so much of, yet still want so much more.
The only one who can make me selfish and greedy.
The one who would never break my heart, the one who would always have time for me.
The one who always made me happy.
The one whom, I would spend all my life seeking.
And I will follow you, to the ends of the world.
I've become a slave for you.
I wake up everyday, on the pursuit of you!

From this day "Money", I declare my love for you.
From this day,I promise to hustle like I've never hustled.
To get as much of you as I can.
...And then some...
From this day, you will be my main focus.
...You wil b the one whom I'll make love 2,
...The one whom I'll stay faithfull to..
...The one I'll nurture...
...U'll be the reason I CLIMAX, in life.
... Coz like Rick Ross said:
"Fuck a Nigga, Money make me COME!"

MONEY,Dough, Cash(Those r jus da few pet names I call u by)...
YOU are THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!

The Angel Who Saved Gee...

I'll be the first to admit it
Im a little sceptical about the "God" theory
Not quite sure if i believe in it
At times, I close my ears when they preach to me
"Who he is"
"Where he's from"
or "Where he resides"
I dont know,
Rumour has it he's one of a kind
And I remember someone telling me he has angels who stay with him somewhere in the sky,
They call it heaven*
If any of this is true,
Tell your momma to speak the truth
Ask her where you from
And how you were concieved
coz the qualities of these angels they've described to me
Are identical to what you've grown to be
I consider you superior to the average being

YOUR ARE A BLESSING TO ME...
CANT YOU SEE?

1000 Apologies (hyperthetically speaking)

Im apologetic for not showing much emotion,
The thing is...
I was scared, coz u werent showing much devotion

Im sorry, im not who you need me to be
The thing is...
I'll always be- "Just Gee..."

Im regretful i let you to believe, that i might be "the one"
When me and him...
You and her...
Was never done!

Im repentant that i wasted all this time with "US"
When all there really was is, ME, YOU & THEM
Two individuals, who dont want to face the truth...
The truth, that is "THEM..."

We were living a lie...
Everyone saw it,but we tried to deny

Truth is, YOU & ME arent meant to be*

The End of Not A LoveStory

This is the END

Never will i spit abt LOVE again..

Broke up wit Numba 5,

Coz HONESTLY dat was nothing but LIE

He 4got wat i was worth

Even wen i put in more work

He neglected  me

Never looked @ me,

Never called,

4got 2 say "I love you", made me feel like a whore
Stopped treating me like his women
And 1 weekend,
Numba 2: whose name is King,
Made me feel like a Queen
So once again, it was a "When You Stopped He Started" story
He took my pain, turned it into Glory

But me nd him cud neva B

Simply coz....
We got History!

Nd i admit, i love him 2

But he gave up on us 2 soon

left my Gspot bruised

We better off as friends

Even tho, my feelings 4 him will neva end.

Thats it...

This was never a LOVE STORY,

i was jus expressing Gspot's Pain NO GLORY!

Im never going bck 2 either one of them...

IM SORRY!

Gspot Going Celibate? Never that!

Eight Bars and i aint never been arrested/
I scribbled down these rhymes, u jus witnessed my sentencing/
Like da nigga from "Prison Break",
Im jus trying 2 escape/
Bt i cant,
Im locked down in dis prison called fate/

Gimme a hand/

Got a whole lotta bitches showing me hate/

But hey, im da Gspot, imma tell u shit 2 ur face/
Got ppl questioning my race/

Its all jus 1 big debate/

"Is Gee Blaq or White?"

Tell me,
"Is she Straight or Dyke?"
Jus pass me da mic, i wana spit dis shit Live!
Im heated up, get da fuck out' my face, u blockin my fans/
Please, jus give me sum air/

#NoJordanSparks

I c u passin da mic, is it TRUTH or DARE?

Im jus spitting 4 da hell of it

A Gspot going celibate

Never that

Wat da hell is gonna cum of dis

Imma keep ripping dis shit 4 da hell of it

Holding it down, nd im loving it!

Ive been around alotta haters and liers and players/

Ive even seen alotta gals goin thru bad breakups/

Ive met too many niggas trying 2 knock me up/

Thinkin a baby wud keep me bound 2 him/

If u didnt knw, lemme give it 2 u 4Sho,

Dis Gspot-jus-cant be tamed/

Coz...

Fake-ass friends, I've had plenty/

Fake-ass men, I met many/

So u wana knw if i still believe

Honestly,

I think love is as real as me weave/

No lies/

I aint even trying 2 diss guys/

I refuse 2 put on a disguise/                                         

Gspot's jus saying wats on her mind/

And that is why....     

Im jus spitting 4 da hell of it

A Gspot going celibate

Never that

Wat da hell is gonna cum of dis

Imma keep ripping dis shit 4 da hell of it

Holding it down, nd im loving it!

Still Not A "Love Story"

Damn, I cant believe im doin this again/
Gspot aint even trying to offend/
I just want people to understand,/
That this, aint a "Love Story"/
Its more of a Truestory/
My story/
This blog, is Gspot's ONLY Glory/
Last time i did it, i hurt alotta people/
Pissed off alotta exes/
Shocked alotta friends/
And yes, everyword was true/
Everything i wrote, I went through/

I ended off with...

Numba 5
The friend who claimed he loved me/
Be there for me/
Made me think that id never be sorry/
Truth is, Im starting to think that he was putting on a Visage/
That maybe, we werent meant to be/
And actually, he was jus tryin 2 win/
Gspot, "so called hot"
Kinda like my SOCO nd Stroh-Rum, DOUBLE on da rocks/
But he forgot, wat Gee was reali about/
RESPECT, TIME & LOVE
My 3 keywords
Him on the otha hand, started treating me lyk a fan/
In every sense,
He used me wen he wanted cooldown/
Get away from da exes nd fast life/
Da heavy partying nd clubs/
My commitement 4 him, was never enough/
Till this day, i could never tell, if it was really love/
He was all about the VERSACE shades/
The quick getaways/
Me?
Im all about, calling a spade a spade/
And in all honesty, im starting to think "OUR LOVE" was FAKE/
Pain cut so deep, lyk i was birthing a BLADE/
#NoWessleySnipes
While he was takin his VODKA shots,
With his crew nd HOTT friends/
I was turning into a HOTTMESS/
No1 cudve guessed/
Double ABSOLUT nd RedBull/
Jus 2 cover up the BULL, i was reali goin thru/
Nd guess wat, NUMBA 4 & 5 r both TAURUS signs/
I shudve read between da lines/
But i didnt, nd if i told ya'll we were ova, i'd b lying/

Naaah ya'll, this is STILL NOT A LOVE STORY...

Im just trying to share my PAIN & GLORY!

When you stopped....He started!

• When you stopped smsing
• He started calling
• When you stopped caring
• He started loving
• When you stopped looking at me
• He couldnt stop starring
• When you stopped treating me lyk ur woman
• He started treating me like his Queen
• When you stopped holding me
• He wouldnt let go
• When you stopped respecting me
• He started worshiping me
• When you stopped feeling my pain
• He beared it with me
• When you stopped sharing your life with me
• He gave me his
• When you stopped spending time with me
• He wanted to spend  all of his time with me

..... When you stopped.....He started!

Letter to a stranger

I had a thought of u 2 day...
It made me smile and cry at the same time...
The thought of you gave me an overwhelming sense of Euphoria and Elation


I saw us together:

laughing>holding hands>kissing
It felt more like a memory, than a premonition

Cause...

• I cud still smell u, i cud still feel u,
• I cud still feel ur breath down my neck,i cud still feel ur hands going down my spine
• I cud still feel every drop of ur cold sweat, from evrytym we laid in ur bed

If all of these events havent happened yet, then tell me this...

• How come the thought of you still gets me wet?
• How come everytime i close my eyes, i see your face?
• How can i long for you, when we havent met?
• How can you be from my future, when i  am certain , that u  r from my past

You look, feel and smell too familiar to be from anywhere else

I hope this letter reaches you in time
I dont want to have yet another Black Valentine

Signed
Gspot

Not A "Love Story"

C i been thru-da heartaches, heartbreaks,/
Sleepless nyts ,nd da fake dates/
Wake up in da  morning nd cudnt think str8/
allow me 2 demonstrate...


Numba 1:

Babydaddy, our shit was kinda heavy/
Dated 3 years str8,nd dem hoes on da syd,der were plenty/
I knew he loved me/
Bt he loved his dick more/
Nd all he reali wanted was 2 score/
He was a pretty bwoi, allota gals loved him/
He knew it, nd havin a kid 2getha cudnt stop him/
Only thing good, dat came from dat, was my daughter/
Nigga cheated on me, Beated me up, den force me 2 sleep wit him, even if der was blood/
He wudnt give a fuck/
Den turn around nd kiss me, tell me he loved me nd he was sori/
I neva believed him, although i loved him, i had 2 leave/
31st December 2007, i told him i was out...
Had no doubts, i had 2 do it/
So i bounced/
That happened 3 yrs ago/

Stayed single for 6mnths str8/
Focused on me...

...Till i met...

Numba 2:

His name was KG/
Handsome, 23, wit alotta dough/
Lacked focused though/
He told me he loved me, wud neva leave me/
That was til ex called nd said she was expecting/
I must admit, dat tore me into pieces/
Thot that he was "Mr Right"/
Guess i was wrong/
Cudnt get ova him/
Tried 2 stay single, bt dat didnt work/
So I decided i needed a distraction/

Thats wen i hooked up wit.....


Numba 3:

His name was Kay/
Freaky s dey can B/
He was da fun guy/
I jus cudnt stand da lies/
But in bed,he made me 4get abt Numba 2/
Bt soon, i realized it wasnt enuf/
I was looking 4 love/
So once again, Gspot stepped/

I chilled 4 a wyl/
Stayed single, bt wasnt ready 2 mingle/
Til i made friends wit dis guy/
He was hot, but he didnt make it to Numba 4/
He showed me his true colours, b4 we cud even make it official/
Had me thinking:"damn Gee, dat was close, u cudve had ur heart broke"

Dis guy introduced me 2...

Numba 4:

We was cool, he had a gal, nd i wasnt ready/
Till she cheated, nd we became steady/
We were inlove/
Everything about him, i loved/
We was close, 2 bestfriends/
Wudve stu:k wit him 2 the end/
He cheated, nd yeah my heart bleeded/
Bt even that wasnt enough, 4 me 2 leave him/
So it happened more den twice, thrice/even more den six tyms/
We broke up a couple of tyms, but we always got bck 2getha/
Until he changed, he became cold/
I was pregnant though/
I cudnt keep it, i needed him nd he didnt want nothing 2 do with me/
So i went thru it alone, da worst kind of pain/
Gspot was torn, evrynyt id hear a lil voice screamin out me/
I blocked it out tho/
Went heavy on the drinking nd smoking/
Surrounded myself wit ppl, bt i still felt lonely/
Walked around wit a smile on my face, but inside i felt foney/
I'll admit, I had an addiction, kinda lyk "EM", pescription pills were my weakness/
Id pop 4 @ a tym, jus 2 feel numb/
Sumtyms, id say its coz i cudnt sleep, but dat was real tho/
Insomnia was my best friend, wen i needed n excuse/
I jus wanted 2 blaq out, passout evrynyt/
Bt id still wake up @ 3, wit the thots of wat it cudve been/
Wyl i was goin thru all this, id text my gal thru da nyt/
We'd have random conversation, didnt want her 2 knw abt da pain i was facing/
Heart wudnt stop raising/ 
Den 1 day he called, wanted 2 talk 2 me/
Nd we back @ it again/
He neva talked abt the baby, or even said sori/
Bt expected us 2 b happy/
I was inlove tho, wnt even lie/
Bt that love came wit a deep sense of hate nd despise/
Evrytym i looked in his eyes, i wanted 2 kill him/
@ tyms id watch him s he sleeps, nd ask myself y im still here/
Why wud i love sum1 wu doesnt give a fuck dat our kid died/
Nd eventually, he was back @ it again/
Cheatin, lying nd bein cold 2wards me/
Bt dis tym i had a friend, wu was inlove wit me/
Dis is wen i wrote, "When u stopped he started"
Evrything on that note, made "HIM" retarted/
So again, i left/

...And my friend...?

...He is ...

NUMBA 5:
**********

Up In Smoke....